I don't my shoe has ever fit, I don't know if I have a shoe.

I am sure you have no clue what I'm talking about, so let me fill you in. In the story of Cinderella was the key to her happy ending. The way to find her good times. The times when everything makes sense, all the puzzle pieces fit, your on top of a cloud. Contentment, when you know who

you are & why. Those brief fleeting moments when everything seems perfect in this world, that is when your shoe fits.

I don't think my shoe has ever fit, EVER. I'm not saying I'm living my life in complete depression and self-pity, but it definitely is not all rainbows and daises. It's tough, it's rough, it's muddy and ragged. I deal with self-doubt, times when I forget God exists, and other times when I really don't care (I know I'm a bad Christian, but you know what so is everybody!) I struggle, I climb, I fight, I don't feel God's presence. I LONG for God's touch, I just want to see God. It's so hard after feeling God's presence to go to a place where you can't. Those times when you feel God isn't around (though of course he is always around). My life has been stretches of darkness with glimpses of light in between. I've accepted that, I'm okay with that. But it's tough, it's hard to keep searching when you don't find anything.

But I want my shoe to fit. I want to be Cinderella. It's amazing how the stories always stop right after the prince find the princess.They all lived happily after after.

"Hey hey, Cinderella, what's the story all about

I got a funny feeling we missed a page or two somehow

Ohh-ohhhh, Cinderella, maybe you could help us out

Does the shoe fit you now" *

Isn't that just a nice little story, who has a happily ever after? Maybe I forgot somewhere along the road that there is no ever after, and it certainly isn't happy. It's pretend, Cinderella is not real. Nobody can be Cinderella. So don't try to be.

*Hey Cinderella By Suzy Bogguss